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Let my Life endI've lost hope for a long time
there is no way to turn back
all these feelings that I feel inside
when will my life dearly end?

Maybe I will take one last shot
to end my life fully
cause after all I'm just a problem
a person not needed no more

I will take my own life for good
It is better then living in Misery
I can't help but burst out crying
Cause in the end I am no longer alive

All the pain that I have ever felt
its so deep inside
I can't help but let my life end
Cause after all I'm just a mistake to begin with

BrokenLooking through the mirror
Into my reflection eyes
I look back
And the memories still burn

To be half awake
I lie in my bed, eyes open
Bloodshot, I wish I wasn't here
Wish I wasn't here today

Feeling empty on school days
And shattered like mirror pieces
They pierce like needles, shards
Cutting open my heart, leaving me broken
Blood stains my soul, coloring it dirty

Look at me now
I am crying
I am crying out loud!
Almost to a screaming point
Everyday, I wish I would disappear
Wish to disappear today

Flying through glass
I lean away, drifting in the distance
And tears crystallized once they fall

Bubbles is what I see
Underwater, I am suffo

Under the Same Skythe rain smudges my sight
bringing the sky down
washing this pain away
washing me
cleansing

raindrops in my eyes
crying in my mouth
silent in my ears
keeping me all around
falling

swimming in the puddles
seas surrounding me
letting me drown
I don't know what I'd do
breathing

crying in the rain
drenched here
people walking by
people in pain
searching

each one under the same sky
each one, different
each one, alone
all of us
afraid

AdaptingAdjusting,
relocating,
accommodating
ourselves
to a new life.

All the pieces will slowly
fall in their places,
everything will decant.

And we will eventually
be fine.

Acid raini'm standing
on this acid
pouring rain
just by letting
you go.

but i know
it won't rain
forever.

S.O.SI have been swimming in this ocean for a while
trying to stay afloat,
fighting not to drown...
A salty taste in my throat,
drops of water fill my lungs
as the waves and the foam
flood my mouth,
and my tears come down...
I need to breath to survive.
It seems I am in the open sea,
dark and deep,
I can't see the shoreline...
My strength is wearing out.
My hands up in the air
waving for help.

Rescue me.
I know you can.
I know you will.

PerfectWe have something special...
When I see you
I want to be lying naked next to you,
and I want you to make love to me,
and when you are making love to me
all I can think of is how much I love you.

We have something special...
When you see me
you want my naked body next to yours,
and you want me to make love to you,
and when I am making love to you
all you can think of is how much you love me.

We have something special...

Pure pleasure and pure love.
The pleasure is intense,
the love is deep and strong.

The perfect combination.

HeartbeatsThough these words are dreaded, I feel it is time to say
All the things I never told you since we died away
All the things I liked the most, the things that made you real
These thoughts must be spoken for my broken heart to heal
Sure, I hate the feeling rushing through my broken veins
Every piece of lost emotion, every bit of pain
Even though this emptiness is cradling my soul
All that haunts me now is how I let it take control
All the tears, the madness, how I let it overrule
To my own existence, I myself have been so cruel
Never did I dare to say these words of lonely truth
Even though I know that isolation kills one's youth…

Why...?Why you keep looking at me?
Why you keep calling me
and praising me?
Why ever time I look at you, you smiles?

You want me to die?
Have a hard-attack when you call my name
fall in a hole because I wasn't looking where I was walking
being careless...

You make me forget everything life has taught me
like I forget every term after a test.
You make everything sparks light and fire
even your stupid video game
(which had more time with you than I ever did)

You casted a spell on me
Now I can't forget you
But did I bewitched you too?

Before sleep I think
and ask you in my mind:
Do you think about me the way I think about you?
Do you see me the way

Within MeMiles apart we are
but it is you
that has filled my heart
with love and happiness

No one has shined through it
Not in this life that I have lived
you are the one that saw good within me
and never see the bad that is there

I love you with all my heart
deep down you mean the world to me
from the stars shining above
to the ground down below

You mean this whole world to me
cause it is true my love
I will always love you
with every part within me

Complete my LifeYou are the light to my darkness
the smiles to my tears
you are the love throughout this world
and the half that makes me whole

You are the laughter in my life
the spirits in the sky
You are the moon shining at night
and the sun during the day

You are the whispers in my ears
the music to all sounds
You are the love of my life
and you are the one I can't live without

You have captured my heart completely
lifted me up when I feel down
You are the strength to my weakness
and the love all around

You are the love of my life
and I mean every word I say
cause my love it is true
you complete the Life that I live <3

One can fight this battleIf you leave this world
many people will cry for you
One can fight this battle
but dont leave a loved one here to suffer

It is not the solution in life
cause people will truly miss you
Only you can break this free
but dont die of painful memories

One person can fight this battle
but it takes two to help win it
So please dont leave for good
cause you will hurt the ones around you

My world would start to fall apart
little by little
A friend you truly are
is not a friend I want to suffer

So please think before you do it
cause this world is cruel enough already
Dont hurt the ones that care
Let the others guide you along

Cause

Beginning of SpringThe sun starts to shine
as the snow starts to melt
making everything slushy
and wet everywhere we are

The warmth is starting to come
as the spring rain starts to begin
beautiful scenery all around
as everything starts to grow

Little by little
the warmth gets there
as the snow starts to melt
with the sun shining down

It is starting to begin
as Spring is starting to come
and Winter will soon be over

All I ever wantedAll I ever wanted
was to be happy
All I ever wanted
was to be free

No tears in my life
and a place to have a true smile
All I ever wanted
was to be myself

People understanding
people caring
All I ever wanted
was to find the one

With you beside me
everything is possible
And with you there for me
my heart is now for you to keep

All I ever wanted
was to laugh
All I ever wanted
was to be accepted

No pain in life
No tears falling
And all I ever wanted
was to find the one

And now that finally came true
cause all I ever wanted was to be happy
and with you by my side
I know there is always a possiblity

Of wanting to liv

Giving upI tried to be the best
I tried to be perfect
I gave it my best shot
but in the end it meant nothing

I tried to be your friend
I tried so hard to be there
But in the end
my heart was ripped to shreds

Broken
Beaten
Abused

I tried so hard to be perfect
Gave it everything I got
Made me weak on the inside
couldn't hold up much longer

Beaten and abused
Heart ripped to shreds
I gave it my all
but nothing was worth it

My life was broken
my life was replaced
over and over again
but in the end I was just worthless

Useless to this world
worthless to this life
Nothing will heal
but the pain I have held inside

You were my friend

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Whats the point on Living?

by *xXxEmoGothicFairyxXx, Jan 5, 2013, 7:23:48 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I'm lost in this world alone
with no hope to go on
with only the tears
crashing all around me

There is nothing that can be done
nothing that is risk anything
I can't help it
but to make sure that I feel this pain

A feeling that I always wanted
a feeling that is like a drug to me
to slit my wrists open
and to watch the blood fall to the ground

There is no hope left to my life
there is no reason for me to be here
I'm stuck in this depression
that I can't seem to control anymore

I just want to feel the pain on my arms
to watch the blood flow from my arms
to feel this pain deep inside
to end my life for good....

There is no hope in this world
Nothing but pain and torture
What is the real point on Living?
when most of the time you feel dead....