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Lonely NightAnother Lonely Night
beneath this darkness I hide
the depression takes over control...
while I start to fade...

The anxiety starts to act up...
as my mind thinks heavy thoughts..
wish this pain would go away
wish everything was different....

My body reacts badly
this pain is so deep
wish the thoughts would vanish
I wish my life turned out differently

Another lonely night
is all that it takes...
a mind that takes control...
of the thoughts that are deep inside

The urge for pain
the urge to react
my mind takes over control...
on this Lonely night I live

Pain and MemoriesThe constant crying
the urge to feel pain
it won't go away....
the memories in my head...

The urge to hurt oneself
the thoughts controlling me
I can't help....
but to cry my heart out

All the pain i feel...
the constant anxiety
I can't help
but to pass out....

The urge to hurt...
the urge to feel...
I can't help
but letting my mind control me

The tears rolling down...
making my chest hurt...
The pain deep inside
I can't help but to hide...

It won't go away...
the pain deep inside
just please help me...
take the pain and memories away.....

HauntedI hear this haunted voice; it whispers lies
It keeps me up at night; it plays my fears
Allowing no sleep for these tired eyes
Telling me things that I don't want to hear

Am I really heartless or am I numb?
Is this simply darkness of am I blind?
Try to claw my way back into the sun
Leave a bloody trail for others to find

Following the sound of a lonely heart
Brought only false hope that I might be freed
I was led astray in the howling dark
The one way out is through the blood I bleed

I've given up hope of living in peace
I only wish now that my heart would cease

FailureI'm a failure at life
failure at being a daughter
I am a failure to this world
why should I bother try?

I am a failure at everything
always faking the smile
always pretending
that everything is alright

I am a failure to this world
a failure at living
why was I put here?
to suffer this pain and torture

Cutting my arms
cutting my legs
feeling the pain
deep inside me

Watch as the blood pour down
cause it seems like I'm a failure
a failure to this world
that we all live in

Why do I cry?
why do I hurt?
I don't understand...
the life that I live

I am a failure in this world
a mistake to this life
so why am I bother here...

How can I?You tell me to forget everything
You tell me to let it go
You tell me to move on
but how the fuck can I?

You say it's the past
But truthfully it never did end
You tell me it was a mistake
so why the fuck do you keep doing it?

Why the hell am I the one being mature
when you guys are fucking adults?
Why should I be blamed
for all the fucking bullshit that has happened?

You called me a mistake
you called me worthless
well maybe you are right
maybe that is true all along

Maybe everything you said about me is true
Maybe I was suppose to be hurt all along
but how can I let it go
How can I forgive anything....

How can I live life

I just WishI wish you cared enough
to know how I truly felt
I wish you understood
what it was like to be me

I wish everything wasn't a lie
I wish that you appreciated me
and not think I was a coward
not think I was a mistake to this world

Everything I have done
why did you hurt me so much?
Why can't I show you how I truly feel
or how much damage you have caused?

I wish you knew when I cried
I wish you knew the pain I felt
I just wish
that you guys actually cared about me

All my FaultI'm sorry for all the problems
I'm sorry what my life turned out to be
It must be all my fault
you guys must hate me dearly....

I'm sorry for whatever I did...
But I'm just a child with problem
It must be all my fault
after all parents aren't wrong...

I'm sorry for making your life miserable
I'm sorry that I wasn't worth you time
Everything must of been my fault
Cause after all I'm a child with problems...

I'm sorry for every wrong I did
I'm sorry for making this life a nightmare
It must be all my fault
cause I have issues in life

I wish I could take it back
I wish I never had these problems...
I'm sorry for everything
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I AM WHO I AM!I am Bisexual
Don't like it?
Good for you
cause I dont care what you think

I am Gothic
I am Emo
I am A nerd
but who gives a shit?

I sure as hell don't!

Respect me for WHO I am
Or don't bother talking to me
Cause I will NEVER change
Never have, and never will

I am Bisexual
I am proud to be one
Don't like it?
GOOD for you

I love a guy
I love a girl
It is MY life
NOT yours to control

So don't bother judging me
cause I don't care what you think
I am WHO I am
and thats NEVER gonna change

I Hate...I hate my body
cause I hate this pain
I hate my life
due to the fact my health acts up

I hate this anxiety
it never wants to end
I hate this depression....
it takes over my life...

I cant control the thoughts
the urge to feel pain
I cant control my mind...
it takes over control...

I hate the way I look
I hate my body
this health acts up...
it doesnt want to end the agony...

I can't sleep...
I am always sick...
I dont know what is wrong with me....
it feels like my body wants to shut down...

I can't control the shakiness...
it takes to much energy...
I cant control the constant crying...
it just happens all the time...

'Goodbye' Isn't Always...You don't know my secret pain
The pain I hide from every day
Every smile fades away
Etched in every word I say
But to you I seem okay

Well, that's just on the surface
Nothing about me is perfect
It's safe to say that I'm worthless
I've got no plan nor a purpose

And I can't begin to explain how it feels to be ignored
By the ones you love, by the ones that you care for
It hurts more than you could ever imagine
And I'm not having this anymore

You burrow under my skin when you assume that I'm okay
That I've never had to deal with any sort of real pain
I've been through more than you could ever forget
This experience alone is solel

All you seem to do is ignore me..Let me begin with this

Maybe im not the MOST emotional person in the world

but i thought that wouldnt matter to you

at least..i thought you wouldnt treat me like filthy trash.

maybe it was stupid and naive of me to think

maybe i was special to you..

maybe im just a fool to think i could obtain happiness

Maybe...

Tossed away,uncared for?

Its pretty familiar to me huh

Why does my heart ache?

Why do i shed these salty tears?

When you ignore and push me away?

Dont you see?

Or are you to busy ignoring me?

Im emotional i thought..this could be my chance to love

that lovely song my heart strings would play

yet a sad melody resonates

I'm Sorry...I can never look forward to tomorrow,
For every new day reaps a new sorrow.
An evening, filled of regret,
One I shall never forget.
With all these torments I hide,
And memories hidden inside,
Another tear rips deep into my soul,
Each and every fight taking its toll.

ListenWill you listen?
To me scream?
Scream so loud,
Your ears'll bleed?
Will you listen?
To my screams?
Screams so loud.
Your ears'll ring?
Will you listen?

Please?

-So Said The Suicide Note"Everything suddenly
Starts fading from my eyes.
The daylight is blurry,
All I can think of is night…
But even the moonlight is lying
As headlights flash before the red

That I keep driving on through.

Oh I just don't know when to stop…
Honey, I'm not sure how to put this,
But today I've given up.

I'm done with holding on.
Truly, I am sorry everyone.

-I won't forget a single one of you-

Today the sun shined extra bright
As if to say,
'You'll be okay.'

But maybe I'm just not
Trying hard enough.

THE SUN WILL SHINE ON."

-So said the suicide note.

The PastI'm looking towards the past.
Help me turn away.
The memories are racing fast.
I wish I didn't remember that day…

I'm searching harder for the past.
To make old habits okay.
Help me turn away.
I'm slowly returning to that day

They've made me forget.

I'm looking towards the past.
Help me turn away.
The memories are racing fast.
I wish I didn't remember that day…

I'm searching harder for the past.
To make old habits okay.
Help me turn away.
I'm slowly returning to that day

When suicide was okay.

And I held on in the back of my mind
Without even realizing
And I can't hold my breath no longer
No matter how hard I tr

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Theme 2 LoveLove is blind
and it makes the world go round

You can have crushes
but you in the end you will only love one person

You can love family
and friends

But have love in relationships as well

Love is weak
and people just throw it around

But love actually makes the world go round
and without it than what would we have today?

Just hate in this world
but with hate there will always be love

Where people will love you for who you are
while others will hate you

But remember that the world is filled with hate
there will at least be ONE person who truly loves you

Love is blind
and hard to see

But you will always find that one person
th

Theme 1 IntroductionLet me introduce myself
and who I am

My name is tiffany
and I graduated highschool

Living in a new city
that I never lived in before

I am loved by one person
and hated by many

But I live life to the fullest
and hope to succeed in my life

I have a dark sided personality
but I also have a light sided personality as well

Music is my life
and so are animals

And as you see
writing is my life

This is a poem
to introduce myself

But to tell you the truth
there is a lot more than people know

So I will do a little introduction
and get this over with

Cause all you need to know
is that I am Tiffany

And I am a writer for life!

DepressionIt comes and it goes
killing deep inside me
The tears falling down
and the loneliness inside me

It never wants to end
this depression inside me
Hurting me to death
and killing my inner self

No more hope in life
but this depression inside me
No end to this misery
and no end to this pain

Worse feeling of all
feeling of depression
and feeling of loneliness

Like nobody seems to care
overdosing to numb the inside
cutting every inch of my skin
and feeling the pain deep inside

The tears rolling down
I dont know why I feel this way
but the pain wont go away
and this depression is forever stored inside me..

Look backLook back at the things you have accomplished
all the wonderful moments that brought you here
Where you had hurt in your life
but you were able to bring yourself back up

Look at the past
and think that it can get better
believe in yourself
and good things will happen

Wake up with a bright smile on your face
rememeber all the people that made you laugh
and forget all the people that made you cry
cause they arent worth your tears

Look back to everything you have accomplished in life
and think about how to make it all better
Remember that you deserve to live
that you deserve to be here

Think back to the past
and wash it off
ca

Title?I had a crush
she was a beautiful girl
that shined right through my heart

I was too scared
to show the world my love
cause it is true
I am bisexual

I was afraid
to prove to the world
that we are all humans after all

I still do have a crush on here
but deep down Im in love with this guy
and I wanted both

But I couldnt have both
cause it wouldnt be love after all
So I chose the guy over the girl

So I wouldnt get hurt
and it is true
I do love him to death

I will always have a crush
on this girl I dearly liked
but after all it is only a crush

I fear of getting hurt
fearing that I would have no one left
So now I am dating

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The Mask

by *xXxEmoGothicFairyxXx, Oct 16, 2012, 5:14:18 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

The Mask that Hides the pain
the depth within oneself
to hold it altogether
pretending that everything is Okay

The mask is the fake
the hurt on the inside
that No one will know
it hides all the pain deep inside

This mask that shows no mercy
no pain, no torment
It hides the fake
of the one that is truly in pain

Cause this Mask
is the perfect reflection
a perfect resemblance
of how one feels
about a life that is lost

This Mask is the perfect treasure
hiding behind it
to show no Pain
deep down in this Cruel world