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I'm tired of it AllI'm tired of being know as
the person with "problems"
I'm tired of being known as
the person with "disabilities"

I'm tired of being a mistake to this world
An unworthy failure in this life
Just because I have these problems
and not many understand them...

I'm tired of being judged
because they don't fully know me
To deal with this pain
and faking it all day long

I'm tired of putting a mask on
I just want to scream to the world
and tell everybody how I truly feel....

I'm tired of living a lie in my life
To pretend that everything is alright
while deep down
I am dying

I'm just tired of dealing with everything
Pretending to have this smile

I am a GirlI am a girl who smiles
when things aren't always happy
I am a girl who cries
but stands up and starts over

I am a girl who is Bisexual
that loves both of the sexes
I am a girl in love
with 2 people

I am a girl that is strong
when most are weak
I am a girl that smiles all the time
when everything is falling apart

I am a girl that sheds a tear
but starts all over again
I am a girl that never gives up
when things don't go her way

I am a girl with a heart
a girl that is in love
I am a girl that cares deeply
for those she truly loves

I am a girl who is in love
with a guy as well as a girl
I am a girl that is Bisexual
and stands up for what sh

Leave this WorldI will slit my wrists
to watch the blood fall to the floor
to end my life for good
and nobody cry a single tear

I will leave this world
pretend that I never existed
This life dont need me no more
I am better off gone from this world

I will slit my wrists
to ease the pain
I can't take the crying
I can't take this pain

There is no hope in this world
There is no reason to live
I will leave this world for good
Maybe someday I will be reborn

When I'm with YouWhen I'm with you
everything seems to real
The moments that we cherish
will forever grow

Fate has kept us apart
but our hearts tell us otherwise
cause when I am with you
I feel so real to this world

These emotions that I feel
This love forever grows
Cause baby when I'm with you
You take my breath away.

The love that we cherish
the hearts are together
The moments that we forever share
will be with us for all eternal

I love you with all my heart
That is not a lie
Cause when I am with you
I know that there is a bright future ahead

Dreaming of YouEvery night I dream of you
wishing upon a star
that you were here for real

Every night I lay in bed
a dream so wonderful
cause you are in it

I dream of being with you
to grow old together
a day never apart
only you are in my thoughts

A feeling so wonderful
it is in my heart
the love that grows
stronger each day

Every night I think of you
our love is for real
you are always here

I dream of happiness
being with you all the time
a dream so magical
that everything seem so real

Every night
you are here with me
keeping me safe
throughout the night

After all it is just a dream
but I promise you
that one day it will be real

So for now I will

I don't belong hereI don't belong
in this world full of hate
Cause it is not who I am
I don't deserve this torture

I don't belong
to live on earth anymore
cause this life was never meant to be
and I'm not worth the suffering in life

I don't belong
to be here to this day
I have given up
the need to belong

I don't think I'm strong enough
to hold onto this life that I live
I don't belong here
to be put through this torment in life

No matter what I try to do
It is never good enough
I don't belong here
it is not what I want in life

Hunchback"Hunchback"

So much that I've done wrong
Always believing it's bad to be me
That I'll never amount to anything
Despite what I've already achieved

So much I can't control
No matter what cards I'm dealt
If I'm a product of my environment
Then why do I blame myself?

So much negativity
Was throw in my direction
It's no wonder I frown
On my unworthy reflection

So what if I've made mistakes?
That only shows I'm imperfect
Show me one human who's divine
And I'll shake his hand with respect

Still when darkness falls
And I sit here in the cold
i know I could do so much better
I know I can be so much more

One day, I'll show them
Everyone who laugh

Thank you MomThank you mom for being there
Thank you mom for always protecting me
Thank you for all the things that you have done
each and everyone of them meant something to me

Thank you for understanding
Thank you for talking to me
Thank you for everything you have done
It has made me very proud today

You have taught me a lot in life
You have always been there for me
Thank you for everything there was
Even more so for loving me

Thank you for taking me in
To always have a loving home
Thank you for helping me through everything
I mean these words that I say

I love you dearest
with all my heart

Thank you for being there for me
when I needed a mom to t

Light within my LifeYou are the light to my life
The stars in the sky
You are the beats to my heart
And the magic in the air
You brighten up my world
Make everything bad go away
You are the Love of my Life
and the one I can't live without

I Feel.I feel confused.
I feel pained.
I feel forgotten.
I feel useless.
I feel hopeless.
I feel lost.
I feel despaired.
I feel like I’m never going to get over this.
I feel like I’m never going to get over you.

ShineIn daylight you shine
through the skies
at night you resign
for tired eyes.

In winter, the gloom and gray
blanket your beauty amongst the snow
and the cloud ridden sky.

Until the next season leads the darkness away
and you are seen again, aglow,
people will have to sit in their sweaters and sigh.

PainI blamed myself for everything
There was nothing that I did was wrong
but I felt the need to be gone
I needed to let this pain go away

I never knew what was wrong
but all the hatred has killed me inside
I pretend that everything is alright
but deep down I hold the pain inside

I can't take this anymore
All these memories tear me apart
It must of been all my fault
after all I was never meant to be Born

I blamed myself for all the hate
Everything that happened was always my fault
The pain and hatred deep inside
I burden myself within this wall

I need to let all the tears fall to the ground
I never had a friend
I never had a family

I wish th

Am i a shadow to you?Do i not exist to you?
cause I am just a shadow in this world
Do you know how I feel?
Or do you play this act all along?

Do I not exist within this life?
Or have you always used me from the start?
Am i even alive to this world?
Cause you made me feel that I don't exist

Am I just a shadow in the air?
Cause you walked over me knowing that I care
Do you know how much pain you put me through?
Or do you even care that you hurt me all this time

Do you feel that there is something between us?
Or was I never meant to be a friend to you?
Do you even care that we aren't friends
Or will this be another act in the end

Am I just a shadow to your life?

I'm sorryI'm sorry for hurting
I'm sorry for crying
I'm sorry my life was a mistake
deep down i wish it were to end

I'm sorry the memories come back
I'm sorry for everything I done wrong
I wish my life was normal
than maybe i won't feel any regret

I'm sorry that I'm different
I'm sorry for my mood problems
I wish that I was different
than maybe I won't feel any sadness

I'm sorry my life was a nightmare
I'm sorry for all the things done wrong
I wish I was never born
than everything would be alright

I'm sorry for all the faults I done
I'm sorry for crying non stop
I wish this pain would go away
and for once I can feel somewhat happy

I'm sorry the m

The GuideOh this dancing darkness
This twilight hour
That brings the heartless
And makes some cower

I will not bend
I cannot break
You see my friend
From the darkness I wake

It’s in my mind
And burned on my soul
Come inside it’s fine
Let us take a stroll

Through this land
That seems so darkened
Just hold my hand
You won’t be burdened

That is now my job
Since you found my heart
To hold you when you sob
And don’t know where to start

I’ll lead the way
To your happiness
Just give me some of your day
And maybe a kiss.

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Hold my Heart foreverYou make me smile
in ways that no one ever has
The love that we share
has grown deep inside

The sparkle in your eyes
bring brightness within my life
All the darkness fades away
all that I have, is happiness throughout life

The way that you smile
the way that you talk
it makes my heart skip a beat
but most importantly, it makes me feel alive

I want to feel your touch
to know that you are true
to feel your body around me
to know that this is the right thing

All I ever wanted was to be free
free of this depression throughout my life
Than there you were
that has lifted my spirits up high

The light will always shine through
as

Place inside my HeartI've loved you from the start
I love you now
I will always love you
Cause you're forever in my heart

You've always been there
Helped me through it all
I am so glad to have you
Forever in my Life

You have taught me so many things
Helped me to believe in myself
You say things to me
That no one ever has

I will always Love you
Through the worse times and the best
Cause my love it is very true
That you will always have a place within my Heart

Marry you One dayYour love is not a Lie
but a dream come true
you have proven to me
that this love will never die

You wipe away all my tears
and bring back the smiles
You give me hope to this life
that I never thought I would have

All that you have done
has made me very proud
You have made me believe in myself
that nobody could of ever done

I am happy to call you my Only
cause you have made me want to live
Thank you for helping me out
You will always be my Only one

I will live my life with you by my side
Nobody could ever take that away
It is like Gold to me
whenever you are near

You will always be the One
and I will always be here for y

My LoveYou mean the world to me
a world no other can control
You mean this life to me
much more then words can describe

My love you keep me sane
It is you that has won my heart
You treat me well
you know the things to make me smile

My life will always belong to you
cause I never had a man
that meant this much to me

Baby it is you that has won my heart
treat it like gold, and never break it apart
cause my love you own my life
and I will forever love you

with every part of my life

A LifeA life full of fears
a life full of hatred
what is the point on living....
this cruel life anyways

All the memories
haunt me in the night
the depression takes over
and the pain begins to rise

A life full of pain
a life full of hurt
a life i never enjoyed
a life that should end

Nothing to feel
No hope to go on
a life that I always wanted
was to end this Life altogether.....

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I need a friend

by *xXxEmoGothicFairyxXx, Mar 3, 2013, 10:39:24 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I need a friend
to understand what I went through
I need a friend
when I feel alone in this world

I need a friend like you
when things don't go my way
a friend that was there from the beginning
that never once left my side

I need a friend in this world
to not feel this pain anymore
I need someone like you in my life
but one day you walked away from me

All I need in this world
to always have a friend by my side
I used to have a friend in this world
but like everyone else

You walked away from me....

I need a friendby *xXxEmoGothicFairyxXx

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

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Critique by ~kitteneyes207 Mar 3, 2013, 11:11:10 AM

This piece was really good, I could definitly relate to this poem do to expirience. Really, the repatition in your work definatley makes the mood more powerful.
The vison and the impact were the two best things and parts of this piece.
The originality was really strong but I don't neccisarily think it deserves 5 stars.
The technique was "okay" only because you used simple word and phrases and I think you could have used better, stronger words.
But besides the technique, the poem was really great and I think if you write things as good or better than this, you could do great things.

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~KuraiTenshiV Mar 18, 2013 Hobbyist

Sorry, it just made me cry. The last line seems to happen quite often with me

~pseudonym-blue Mar 3, 2013

If you wrote this about yourself then I'm sure that you'll find a great friend

*xXxEmoGothicFairyxXx Mar 3, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you

~pseudonym-blue Mar 3, 2013

I don't know how to do the hug emoticon.

okay I just learned

*xXxEmoGothicFairyxXx Mar 3, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Hehe

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