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The MaskThe Mask that Hides the pain
the depth within oneself
to hold it altogether
pretending that everything is Okay

The mask is the fake
the hurt on the inside
that No one will know
it hides all the pain deep inside

This mask that shows no mercy
no pain, no torment
It hides the fake
of the one that is truly in pain

Cause this Mask
is the perfect reflection
a perfect resemblance
of how one feels
about a life that is lost

This Mask is the perfect treasure
hiding behind it
to show no Pain
deep down in this Cruel world
Pain and MemoriesThe constant crying
the urge to feel pain
it won't go away....
the memories in my head...

The urge to hurt oneself
the thoughts controlling me
I can't help....
but to cry my heart out

All the pain i feel...
the constant anxiety
I can't help
but to pass out....

The urge to hurt...
the urge to feel...
I can't help
but letting my mind control me

The tears rolling down...
making my chest hurt...
The pain deep inside
I can't help but to hide...

It won't go away...
the pain deep inside
just please help me...
take the pain and memories away.....
Cherish ForeverYou're all I ever wanted
All I ever need
You're the sun to my day
the moon in the Night

You're the ones I truly love
the one I truly care for
You're the one I will love
the one I will trust

You're the ground down below
and the stars in the sky
You're the light in my day
and the smell of fresh air

You're the spirits in the sky
the heart that's beating
You're the love of my life
the one I care for the most

You're the sound to my music
the smile through the tears
You're the one I love
The one I care

You're forever mine
forever my only
You're the love of my life
The One I will Cherish forever
You Belong in my LifeA painful life
a darken world
but the only thing
that keeps me going

is Being with you

A cruel world
a cruel life
Nothing can bare
the way I felt all these years

But with you in my life
with you in this world
I can move on
to a better life

The memories in my life
the pain I always feel
but with you right beside me
I will always have hope to move on

A darken world
a painful life
but with you in it
My smile will always be here

Left with no hope
left with the pain
I will always remember
that you belong in my life <3
In TimeOur love will never fade
it will never end
cause in time
I've grown to love you more

My heart will always belong to you
along with my soul
along with my life

Cause in time
you will always be mine
In my heart
in my life

Never to be apart
never to be alone
cause I will always love you
with every part in me

Cause in time
I will grown to love you more
with every breath it takes
you will always be Mine
Step into the DarknessWalk into the darkness
away from the light
Peace is within us
where Darkness is our friend

No one can see us
No one will know we're there
Step into the darkness
and away from the Light

Finding peace in the dark
No where to escape
Darkness is our friend
Darkness is in our soul

Step out of the Light
everyday is Darkness to us
No way to escape
No where to go

Darkness is our friend
The light is our enemy
so Step into the darkness
and stay away from the Light
I Hate This LifeI hate the life I am living...
It feels like I'm not accomplishing anything
I just wish it would end already
for this misery to be over

Stress after stress
I just wish it would end...
I hate this life already
There is no good left to it

I want to leave this world...
to not deal with the pain all the time
but at the same time I can't....
cause I am deeply in love

I hate my life with a passion
but with you in it...
it makes my life worth living...

I don't like who I am...
I never have liked myself
I hate this life that I am living...
if it weren't for you, I would be long gone...
Lonely NightAnother Lonely Night
beneath this darkness I hide
the depression takes over control...
while I start to fade...

The anxiety starts to act up...
as my mind thinks heavy thoughts..
wish this pain would go away
wish everything was different....

My body reacts badly
this pain is so deep
wish the thoughts would vanish
I wish my life turned out differently

Another lonely night
is all that it takes...
a mind that takes control...
of the thoughts that are deep inside

The urge for pain
the urge to react
my mind takes over control...
on this Lonely night I live
FailureI'm a failure at life
failure at being a daughter
I am a failure to this world
why should I bother try?

I am a failure at everything
always faking the smile
always pretending
that everything is alright

I am a failure to this world
a failure at living
why was I put here?
to suffer this pain and torture

Cutting my arms
cutting my legs
feeling the pain
deep inside me

Watch as the blood pour down
cause it seems like I'm a failure
a failure to this world
that we all live in

Why do I cry?
why do I hurt?
I don't understand...
the life that I live

I am a failure in this world
a mistake to this life
so why am I bother here...
I just WishI wish you cared enough
to know how I truly felt
I wish you understood
what it was like to be me

I wish everything wasn't a lie
I wish that you appreciated me
and not think I was a coward
not think I was a mistake to this world

Everything I have done
why did you hurt me so much?
Why can't I show you how I truly feel
or how much damage you have caused?

I wish you knew when I cried
I wish you knew the pain I felt
I just wish
that you guys actually cared about me
InsomniaIn the night
I lay awake
Can't sleep
can't dream
but just to think

Think about everything
think about the past
even think about the future'
cause in the night I can't sleep

No sleep for me
nothing can happen
what will get me?
will I no longer be here?

Insomnia sucks
it takes over my mind
cause In the night i cant sleep
until I black out

Don't let me sleep!
something gonna get me
don't let me fall asleep
but my body tells me to sleep

Needing the sleep
but fearing it so much
In the night
I can't sleep

Its controlling my mind
while my body needs me to sleep
but in the night
I won't sleep

Not until I black out
so I w
I miss youI wish you were here today
cause I need to be with you....
I need to see you in sight
and hope i dont disappoint you..

I wish i could see you
to hug you tightly
I miss you everyday....
and wish you were here...

You're the only family i love
I wish you were alive
the only one that cared
the only one that loved me....

I miss the moments we had
and the long talks all the time
But most importantly
I miss that you aren't here

I wish I could see you
to know what you truly think
I wish you were here....
cause deep down I truly miss you
HauntedI hear this haunted voice; it whispers lies
It keeps me up at night; it plays my fears
Allowing no sleep for these tired eyes
Telling me things that I don't want to hear

Am I really heartless or am I numb?
Is this simply darkness of am I blind?
Try to claw my way back into the sun
Leave a bloody trail for others to find

Following the sound of a lonely heart
Brought only false hope that I might be freed
I was led astray in the howling dark
The one way out is through the blood I bleed

I've given up hope of living in peace
I only wish now that my heart would cease
Life be Better without MeI rather live in Sadness
knowing that I can feel the pain
I Rather live in Agony
and deal with the thoughts in my mind

Nothing will ever fade away
It was all just messed up lies to take
I wish I never was born
then maybe life can be a happier place

A life full of hurt
the pain that will never escape
Crying alone
for no one to see the pain i burden in me

For all those who care
for all those who lied
Maybe it was all meant to be
that this life was hopeless to all

I can't seem to get these memories out
I can't feel anything within me
Maybe I was just a hopeless failure...
that life would be better without me....
The DemonThe demon inside me
has not escape
it eats me slowly
when evil is around

The darkness in this world
the bad spirits all around
The demon inside me
is yet to be released

It kills me slowly
the deep emotions I feel
The good is now gone
forever has the bad arrive

The demon is inside me
it has yet to be released
Nothing can help
escape the feelings I have

A demon I am
a demon I shall be
It has not escaped me
Until evil has arrived

Let no evil near me
for not only my own sake
but the sake of others

This demon has yet to be revealed
This demon is deep inside me
killing every part of me
and trying to break free

So let no e
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I AM WHO I AM!

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I am Bisexual
Don't like it?
Good for you
cause I dont care what you think

I am Gothic
I am Emo
I am A nerd
but who gives a shit?

I sure as hell don't!

Respect me for WHO I am
Or don't bother talking to me
Cause I will NEVER change
Never have, and never will

I am Bisexual
I am proud to be one
Don't like it?
GOOD for you

I love a guy
I love a girl
It is MY life
NOT yours to control

So don't bother judging me
cause I don't care what you think
I am WHO I am
and thats NEVER gonna change

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~Sauny May 17, 2013  Student General Artist
I've only started thinking I'm Bi recently but my friends (or the ones I've told) haven't cared really and my best friend has supported me and embraced it. I'm very lucky and I hope that people don't give you too much crap about this.
But if you ever have problems always feel free to complain to me. I'm only new to your poems and you but I still want to help.
Beautiful writing.
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*xXxEmoGothicFairyxXx May 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
That's wonderful to here :hug: I think by now many people let it slide simply b/c I don't listen to them and I stand up for what I believe is right.
Thank you :)
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~Jasminenightheart Feb 4, 2013  Student Writer
I love this, as a fellow BI I get crap alot of the time, this is inspiring and really well thought out, tank you for submitting this for others to see
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*xXxEmoGothicFairyxXx Feb 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you very much, I'm glad you loved it :)
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~Jasminenightheart Feb 5, 2013  Student Writer
:D
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~BlackCatWhiteWolf Oct 19, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I love this. Thank you.
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*xXxEmoGothicFairyxXx Oct 19, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you :)
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~BlackCatWhiteWolf Oct 19, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome :)
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~zacoroneman Oct 16, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
This is so perfect. I'm glad you'll never change yourself for others!
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*xXxEmoGothicFairyxXx Oct 16, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you! Hehe I definitely wont.
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