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Lonely NightAnother Lonely Night
beneath this darkness I hide
the depression takes over control...
while I start to fade...

The anxiety starts to act up...
as my mind thinks heavy thoughts..
wish this pain would go away
wish everything was different....

My body reacts badly
this pain is so deep
wish the thoughts would vanish
I wish my life turned out differently

Another lonely night
is all that it takes...
a mind that takes control...
of the thoughts that are deep inside

The urge for pain
the urge to react
my mind takes over control...
on this Lonely night I live

Memories don't Fade away...Memories come
Memories go
It brings terror within my life
and forces me to feel

The memories that haunt me
the memories always here
why does it have to take over?
When I don't need it anymore....

Killing me on the inside
dreading every moment of existence
why must I live a life full of terror?
when it will never end....

Memories haunt me
memories destroy me
It takes over control
Until there is Nothing to Feel

Makes me cry my heart out
Killing me on the inside
The memories that are here
will never fade away....

Im biMom i told you something
a long time ago
but you didnt believe me
except laugh in my face

I told you that i cut
I told you that i am bi
I love both girls and boys
but I had depression as well

But mom
why do you think of me as a different person?
Why dont you believe me when i said I am bi?
Why do you treat me differently than any other person?

It meant a lot to me
when i was open
but in the end
I was left with tears that fell

Mom do you understand me?
Dad do you know how I feel?
Why cant i be open to you
without getting hurt all the time?

It is true
I am bi
I love both boys and girls
I am attracted to both

I have bee

WordsWords float on a thin line
Some scurry through
My cloudy mind
Never to be caught only
Leaving their essence behind
Give me writings to where
People can sometimes find
What I mean

No matter what I do
I can never seem to convey
The emotion of my poem to
A person despite who they are
I even doubt you
Will get just what I mean
When I finish a poem I rue
Make the stupid poem

My own words
Are twisting and forming
Into a poem I didn't make
Sometimes I feel like crying
The frustration is so great
I keep writing
Otherwise I'll always
Be just scribbling

One day......The pain deep inside
has burden me within
I can't control these urges
I just want to slice my arms

To watch the blood fall to the floor
little by little
the pool of blood to the ground
To feel every ounce of pain.
and never cry in sadness

I can't help but feel it all
Pain is my dearest friend of all
I want to slice my arms open
to watch each drip fall to the ground

Soon I will get rid of this misery
Left with no hope to this life
Soon this life will be long gone
Maybe one day it will get better

I want to cry out to the world
to show the pain i feel inside
But every scream that happens
nobody hears it at all

I will cut deep within me
To f

Because of YouI know I'm crazy,
but its because of you.
I think you're causing,
these feelings,
that bloom,
when I see you.

I don't know what to say,
but I'll give you some space.
I don't know what to do,
but I think, I like you.

You make me smile,
you make me laugh,
you make me blush,
but you don't see,
or is it just me??

Cherish ForeverYou're all I ever wanted
All I ever need
You're the sun to my day
the moon in the Night

You're the ones I truly love
the one I truly care for
You're the one I will love
the one I will trust

You're the ground down below
and the stars in the sky
You're the light in my day
and the smell of fresh air

You're the spirits in the sky
the heart that's beating
You're the love of my life
the one I care for the most

You're the sound to my music
the smile through the tears
You're the one I love
The one I care

You're forever mine
forever my only
You're the love of my life
The One I will Cherish forever

FailureI'm a failure at life
failure at being a daughter
I am a failure to this world
why should I bother try?

I am a failure at everything
always faking the smile
always pretending
that everything is alright

I am a failure to this world
a failure at living
why was I put here?
to suffer this pain and torture

Cutting my arms
cutting my legs
feeling the pain
deep inside me

Watch as the blood pour down
cause it seems like I'm a failure
a failure to this world
that we all live in

Why do I cry?
why do I hurt?
I don't understand...
the life that I live

I am a failure in this world
a mistake to this life
so why am I bother here...

This LifeLife full of happiness
full of hope to live
but why do people
try to ruin one's life?

What has made this life
so hateful and painful?
Why can't people just love
and Be happy for once?

A life that suppose to be fun
full of excitement
But is left with war
and disobedience

Why must this life be hatred?
Killing an innocent person
what was the point
to put up with all this Pain?

A life that suppose to be caring
full of love and full of laughter
but now is full of digust
and full of Hurt

Why was this life so cruel?
why must it be so hateful?
Can't people just get along
and live life like it was a Happy place?

A place full of

The MaskThe Mask that Hides the pain
the depth within oneself
to hold it altogether
pretending that everything is Okay

The mask is the fake
the hurt on the inside
that No one will know
it hides all the pain deep inside

This mask that shows no mercy
no pain, no torment
It hides the fake
of the one that is truly in pain

Cause this Mask
is the perfect reflection
a perfect resemblance
of how one feels
about a life that is lost

This Mask is the perfect treasure
hiding behind it
to show no Pain
deep down in this Cruel world

I Hate...I hate my body
cause I hate this pain
I hate my life
due to the fact my health acts up

I hate this anxiety
it never wants to end
I hate this depression....
it takes over my life...

I cant control the thoughts
the urge to feel pain
I cant control my mind...
it takes over control...

I hate the way I look
I hate my body
this health acts up...
it doesnt want to end the agony...

I can't sleep...
I am always sick...
I dont know what is wrong with me....
it feels like my body wants to shut down...

I can't control the shakiness...
it takes to much energy...
I cant control the constant crying...
it just happens all the time...

Step into the DarknessWalk into the darkness
away from the light
Peace is within us
where Darkness is our friend

No one can see us
No one will know we're there
Step into the darkness
and away from the Light

Finding peace in the dark
No where to escape
Darkness is our friend
Darkness is in our soul

Step out of the Light
everyday is Darkness to us
No way to escape
No where to go

Darkness is our friend
The light is our enemy
so Step into the darkness
and stay away from the Light

Love you ForeverI will hug you tightly
and never let you go
cause you are
my one and only

I will love you forever
I will love you for eternity
cause you're the one
that has my heart completely

For you are my love
my life
my savior

I will always love you
I will always care for you
Cause baby it is true
you are forever my lover

I will cherish every moment
hug you tight
and never let you go

Cause in your arms
I will always be safe
I will always feel loved
I will always be ontop of the world

You're my baby
My love
my life

Baby you are forever my lover
forever in my future
cause it is true
I love you more then anything in this world &l

In TimeOur love will never fade
it will never end
cause in time
I've grown to love you more

My heart will always belong to you
along with my soul
along with my life

Cause in time
you will always be mine
In my heart
in my life

Never to be apart
never to be alone
cause I will always love you
with every part in me

Cause in time
I will grown to love you more
with every breath it takes
you will always be Mine

You Belong in my LifeA painful life
a darken world
but the only thing
that keeps me going

is Being with you

A cruel world
a cruel life
Nothing can bare
the way I felt all these years

But with you in my life
with you in this world
I can move on
to a better life

The memories in my life
the pain I always feel
but with you right beside me
I will always have hope to move on

A darken world
a painful life
but with you in it
My smile will always be here

Left with no hope
left with the pain
I will always remember
that you belong in my life <3

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A Life

by *xXxEmoGothicFairyxXx, Dec 1, 2012, 4:35:45 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

A life full of fears
a life full of hatred
what is the point on living....
this cruel life anyways

All the memories
haunt me in the night
the depression takes over
and the pain begins to rise

A life full of pain
a life full of hurt
a life i never enjoyed
a life that should end

Nothing to feel
No hope to go on
a life that I always wanted
was to end this Life altogether.....